Rough Day...

I woke up last night around 3:00 crying. I had had a bad dream. I know that it sounds childish, but I have been having very vivid dreams. I won't go into details, but I spent the next hour in Zack's arms really upset and scared to fall back asleep. Sometimes when I fall back asleep my dreams pick up right where I left off. I thought of happy things for about 2 hours and finally fell back to sleep. Needless to say this morning was hard to get up and go. I was late to work, then when I did get to work I decided to email a coworker that was due two days after me to find out what she was having. I knew that she was having her gender ultrasound done over Spring Break. I had done some therapy and another coworker stopped me in the hall and asked me if I had heard what had happened. The next few minutes brought lots of emotion. I just listened in disbelief. My coworker had lost her baby. I was sad, scared, and upset all the same time. I immediately became nauseous and thought I might get sick. This stuff wasn't suppose to happen this late in a pregnancy. My heart broke for her and her family. I ran to my room and tried to stop the email that I had sent to her. It was too late, she had already opened it and replied. From what I know she is doing okay. She will be out of work this week, and all I can do is pray for her and her family. Children are such a blessing and I can't even begin to imagine what she is going through. I honestly don't think that this day could get any worse. I am just drained....